so yeah, after deciding that im NOT moving afterall, lifes been gooood, or should i say back to normal. so much more enjoying life, its quite strange actually. dont know if i like appreciate my apt more or i got rid of a lot of my selfishness. oh, i did start tithing again which might have something to do w/ it. so yeah, i stopped for a good 2 months...but im on track again and that might be it too. and maybe one even helped to do the other. either way, lifes good again especially when i think that ill be home in less than a month!