the move

its so hard to keep up w/ everything thats going on...
1. school - im always shifting back and forth betw going full-time or continuing on as part-time. a big part has to do w/ the feel of the school. and today i met up w/ a lutheran from norway who was able to shed a LOT of light on this issue. the school is lutheran or should i say japanese lutheran. i met her at the morning service and we were able to share a lot of a lot of things and found out for one that i have wrongly stereotyped lutherans judging them based on lutherans in japan and the us. and it was refreshing to know that she felt a lot of similar stress and frustrations toward the japanese lutherans as i did and i was able to put a lot of words to my thoughts in the process. all this to say, i like my classes im currently taking but am thinking of NOT going full-time as of now...we'll see how i am next week...
2. theres this thing about moving thats been on my mind. our church has rents a house and rents this out to the congregation. the girls got one and the guys got another. theres one guy living right there now and several guys including the pastor has asked me if i wanted to move in and after praying about it heres what happened: i found out a lot about my selfishness, of how i talk about building relationships in our small group but when it comes down to it, i dont allow them into my life, theres a part of my life, my heart that is off limits, so ive been convicted of this recently and have come to the point of ok, i'll move, but now im realizing, hey, i dont necessarily have to move in order to heal/fix my selfishness. the fact is the place was a mess, but more to the point, it gave me the assurance that i dont need to move just yet. it doesnt have to be now and that theres a lot i can start doing while being at my apt
3. works good
4. small group is going really good. this season is titled building relationship