acceptance

you ever read anything or seen a movie and somthing in it just rang true to what you were going through at that exact time...
i go to this church yesterday morning, dont know my exact reasonings why i even went, to tell people that i went, to let people know that im well connected, to give me more artillery to say just how bad they are, to feed my hate, my judgmentalism
for whatever reason i went and i found myself questioning the church, questioning God, and this morning im reading blue like jazz and in one chapter it writes how don the author hated church but as he read through ephesians he realized that God loves him just as much as he loves the people at that church and so he asked God to help him love them. they really arent bad people, just different.
and maybe thats it...bc i never really felt accepted by my own family i have a hard time accepting those who are different from me. i label them phoney, not knowing what theyre doing, that their way of doing church is messed up, all the while boosting my own ego of what im doing, to feed my own ego, my own self-righteousness.

help me love them...