shift

so the small group has definitely seemed like it has entered a new phase.
the first two months of excitement are definitely over. not that things arent exciting now but its definitely different in a way that whereas everything was new before, now its more of ok, now given what we have, what do we do w/ this, where do we want to take this b/c it has definitely changed. what was once JUST a bible study, now has taken on a very different shape. what was once just me teaching has now become something more participatory and more...i hate to say this, but more team oriented...AUGH! strange...but thats what it is. it completely took on a life of its own, things were being defined and now that we sort of found out what started, now we can begin to define where we exactly want to take this. and i find myself easily being kept in a maintenance mode or kick-back-and-relax mode but i know that that phase is over. there are more people w/ a stake in this now. its not just MY bible study anymore. yet are the others expecting anything different? or is it just me? what do i want? i want to just continue teaching and taking care of those that came. so maybe i could/should just continue to do that as this all came about b/c of that instead of thinking i should do this/that to MAKE it something maybe it shouldn't even be...hmmm