mission possible

and so the primary of my return trip to hawaii was to really come to grips w/ how i relate to my mother. all of my life i felt that my mother never accepted me, we were just different though, the way we give and receive love, but thats just my point, we were always on different wavelengths and i never was able to sincerely with an open heart receive what she felt she was giving...but this time back, so for the first time in my life, the second nite back, i was lying on my bed and felt that i was loved by my mother, or in other sense i was able to receive her love.
and you know, since that happened on the 2nd nite i was back i was able to spend the rest of the vacation on cruise control or said in a different way, whatever else happened was gravy!
and it still continues b/c the day i arrive, she calls me asking me if everything's ok, and the next day she calls me again saying that she misses me, AND today i receive another letter saying "thank you" for coming and spending time at home!

thank you everyone for your prayers...:)